An Ugly Start, But Allah SWT Showed Me The Way
It has been a while since my last post. I was actually excited to start this year, but God has written everything beforehand. 2011 was not a great start for me.
I had an accident one fine day on my way to work, and God really wanted to show me something. I really witnessed a feeling.. a feeling that how you felt so hopeless and the thing you only think of was, you're going to die, O' Allah help me.' But He was only giving me a bit of that feeling, coz i did not injured, but the trauma was still with me, until now, it prevented me to do more sins...
I just want to live this life as good as a person deserve to be. I want to change to be a better person. I don't want to be the bad me. It is seriously disgusting.
I'm not blaming Him for making me, me. This is me, but He put me down here on earth, for me to learn, change and live as His faithful servant. God was never wrong. I'm going to change this ugly start with a great ending.
I had an accident one fine day on my way to work, and God really wanted to show me something. I really witnessed a feeling.. a feeling that how you felt so hopeless and the thing you only think of was, you're going to die, O' Allah help me.' But He was only giving me a bit of that feeling, coz i did not injured, but the trauma was still with me, until now, it prevented me to do more sins...
I just want to live this life as good as a person deserve to be. I want to change to be a better person. I don't want to be the bad me. It is seriously disgusting.
I'm not blaming Him for making me, me. This is me, but He put me down here on earth, for me to learn, change and live as His faithful servant. God was never wrong. I'm going to change this ugly start with a great ending.
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